(trigger warning) I’m massively struggling & desperate to find treatment other than medications…Stims were the only thing that helped my resistant-depression, until I grew tolerant.

Stopped Ritalin. I never abused it. Was prescribed it 7 years ago for treatment-resistant depression & chronic fatigue. Along with numerous antidepressants I was on the last 30 years.

In fact, I’ve tried all the antidepressants & they do not help. They only increase fatigue & anhedonia.

Only other option is Parkinson’s meds (Dopamine agonists) which are worse than Ritalin…. I mean might as well just do coke.

I’m wondering if anyone here has done TMS? To rewire pathways in brain….? 🧠

I’m suffering from: Severe anhedonia.

Exhausted all the time.

No pleasure.

No motivation.

Unable to get out of bed (despite sleeping 12 hours).

Unemployed, unable to work.

Social withdrawal.

(SI) Suic Ideations (become intrusive now)

I’ve spent all the money I can on functional blood tests (ruling out deficiencies), numerous Therapists (doesn’t help my symptoms), Psychiatrists (only prescribe more brain-disabling drugs)

I am barely able to exercise due to this (plus chronic pain) apart from walking.

I eat a healthy balanced diet.

I can’t live like this anymore. It never really gets better. I’m wanting to cave because my "baseline" before Ritalin was never great to begin with.