When I began my path of recovery, I was so fucking scared of the things I read. That it could take up to 18 months for the brain to recover from a serious stimulant addiction.

15 months in, I'm so happy that I'm still seeing improvements. I know I did something to myself with this addiction, but my experience of life is still getting richer. Every few months I think to myself, "man, I've come a really long way since just 3 months ago".

Things have been good enough for a really long time. Things happening in my life have dampened the experience of recovery quite a bit on the one hand, but have taken my mind completely off it on the other. So I'll take what I can get. I wish I was a little more motivated, but I'm really fine, and I'm still getting better. The motivation thing is nothing new anyway, hah.

I don't ever want to experience a stimulant addiction again. My life fucking sucked when I was trapped in that cycle.

I love reddit's recovery spaces. Thank you all for being here when I needed you the most.