36/m. Since the pandemic, working from home, I found it difficult to get things done. I think this was/is mostly to do with depression, loneliness, and lack of life goals, but I got myself a private ADHD diagnosis (not hard, it’s pretty obvious what to say during the interview), and have been on Ritalin for nearly two years now. One thing that isn’t doubtful is that I have ASD.

It did wonders for productivity, but now I’m working onsite full time and it feels like it’s become a dependency rather than a necessity. I also topped it up with cocaine and ketamine outside of work. Generally it feels my sex drive has gone, and I obsess with nothing except work and productivity, instead of any other interests.

I decided to quit 48 hours ago. However I’m too depressed to even think about going into work. I’ve called in sick and was hoping to get some minor chores done in the house, but I can’t face it. How long does this period last? I feel like I need to talk to people to help overcome the depression, but it’s hard to know where to start.

I did try NA a few weeks ago, but I found the people there very overfamiliar, with all the hugging and the mantras. I gave a couple of people my number but one of them kept calling me during work, even leaving me voicemails, which I didn’t appreciate.