High anxiety with racing thoughts and deassociation is still present ,and plus agitated depression probably due to not improving symptoms of withdrawal . Racing thoughts { mind is speeding from morning till the evening )usually about past, shame, anger , panic about today and future, " life is over"," why did i do it", beating for every missed opportunities, mistakes and stupid decisions, people from the past, childhood . Hard to focus, to work, to socialize , to read a book, to exercise.

Tried 2 rounds of antidepressants with zero change, tried low dosage Valium and Gabapentin - no changes . Pushing yourself in the gym, but barely finishing the running or weigh lifting due to overactive brain. Meditation is not in the cards. Therapy is questionable, because my child believe its chemically induced, and not mental. I feel the therapy needed to be done just to see if its working.

Our doctor ( with PHD in biochemistry, the best what we found after many tries)) cant explain why nothing is working, don't think its PAW related, but my child is saying that the feeling is like being on Adderall still, and " I am not myself" . No mental illnesses or ADHD symptoms before Adderall abuse ( 19 months , 20 mg per day with 3months brake ).

I know some redditors in recovery have had lingering anxiety and depression after 12 months of PAW, How did it look and feel ?

We are all in family are so confused what it is - a lingering chemically induced anxiety from PAW, a new mental anxiety developed during PAW?

Any experience and advices are very appreciated,