As I close in on 15 months, I’ve made some remarkable progress in the past few weeks…. I held off saying anything because I know how up and down paws is, but the gains are holding.

Strangely, this has coincided with fragmented sleep and insane dreams, but I think this is part of the healing process.

The biggest gains: - Anhedonia is less severe - Mood is better - Sleepiness is less severe

That doesn’t mean I’m not still struggling with these, but the severity went from high or very high to moderate.

I’m still struggling with cognition, motivation, and focus, though. I’m very unproductive and I hate that.

If you had to ask me how close I feel to baseline, I think I’m about a good 9 months away.

The first 13 months felt like I made very little progress. It was ridiculous.

Sometimes progress goes for centimeters at a time only to jump a few feet.