So in about a week i will be 4 years clean from meth. Things are completely different for me today. A change has occured in my being of some form. I am seperate from meth. i do not know when or where it happened. I only know that it has occured. A rift has formed between me and that substance.

My life is not a bed of roses, in fact, its far from it.

I have taken on new perspectives about alot of things.....things like meth, and my history with it.....and both of our places in the world.

To be blunt there are many things i am uncomfortable with in society. Many things i am confused about.......many things that make me feel sad and angry. I am upset with myself. I am upset with the powers that be.

I can say that without a shadow of a doubt that if you quit using that in 5 years time there is a good possibility you could put everything about speed and that lifestyle behind you if you choose to do it.

I have come to realize alot of uncomfortable truths about the cost of addiction. using meth is always going to be punishment enough for me using meth.......but the systemic cost of associating with meth in anyway are a close, and i mean a fkng close second. the only thing worse for me than being around someone dependent on me using is me actually using......but like i said, its a close, close second. Ill give the powers that be some golden advice.......any industry dependent on meth is destined to fail......and fail miserably.....industry and meth go together in society like fire and gasoline in a lumber yard.....there is no good that can come of it.