Hey fam!

I’m 17 months free of the grip that meth had on me and it feels really indescribable. I think part of me feels like I was never going to be able to get clean. I hadn’t given up by any means, but, it just seemed like the most unachievable of goals- the dangling carrot just out of reach.

But, somehow, I’m doing the damn thing! I am doing my best to stay in the solution and for me that means working a 12-step program with a sponsor and having a relationship with a higher power.

Today I feel lighter on so many different levels. The fact that I sleep every night like a regular human should and wake up and DON’T need something is truly a beautiful thing.

Everyday in active addiction I was terrified of my own shadow. Everyday I was flooded with feelings of impending doom. I don’t miss that shit, but I don’t ever want to forget how the hopelessness or emptiness I felt.

Anyways, life on life’s terms is a lot more manageable with a clear mind. Not everyday is rainbows & strawberries, but, each day I know I’ll be okay as long as I don’t get loaded.

No more trash dopamine. No more lies. No more breaking my own heart.

I’m grateful to be here guys. If meth didn’t take my life, it only would’ve been a matter of time before I took it myself.

I am learning who I am without drugs and she’s not so bad!

Please, if you’re struggling, don’t give up. Keep trying. If I could kick this habit, you can too. Reach out if you need to.

Thanks for reading.