Me and my fiancé relapsed April 4th on meth what was spouse to be a weekend turned into well everyday basically til now , I’ve noticed the quality took a massive dive and we both been experiencing some awful side affects, our tongues : throats been getting white bumps , dehydrated to the point nothing seems to help I been throwing up stomach bio , bad migraines, no matter how much we eat or hydrate it doesn’t seem to help , yet we kept doing it, anyways we done a few dilaudids, hydromorphs to come down at times and feel normal get some sleep , not be in pain with our mouths , and well we tried fentanyl for our first time 2 weeks ago and done it 4/5 times since today would of been another time but we were ripped off. Honestly kind of grateful I got my money back and lost it on the guy but I told my fiancé we can’t do drugs anymore or I have to leave. We have rent coming up and don’t have it all, Tuesday I got a job interview and if I fuck this up we may end up homeless… we both lost 25-30lbs since April 4th and have been insanely depressed. We were sober since July when we both packed a bag of clothes each and took a tent and moved to this new province with no family or friends near. We ended up finding a place outside the city a month being here , we don’t drive so it was kind of hell but kind of kept us away from the city bullshit , we moved downtown in January, the guy I switched places with is the only person I knew here from back home my childhood, after switching places a few weeks go by and he asks me if I do coke , I said no and that played on my mind for a few days before getting a gram off him despite knowing my journey , I hid that gram from my fiancé few days later we both quit our jobs we had at the same factory. I guess what advice I’m looking for is how can we make this easier on ourselves. It seems within 24hours of not using we’re lifeless, no energy no motivation kind of zombie like, what can we do to make this easier? With my interview Tuesday I’m scared to death I won’t be physically capable of working with how I feel right now

That’s a picture I sent a friend at what was probably the end of a bad binge (nose bleed) and the other is a few weeks before relapse

Also we are both iv users