went to my first NA meeting this morning, high of course. didn’t know how to feel or what to say so i just saw in the back and didn’t say a word. once the meeting was over i just got up and left.

but i did it. i took the first step.

i want to be sober. i don’t want to keep getting high.

tomorrow starts day 1.. again.

i can do this, i know i can. i can’t keep doing this and hiding this from everyone. I’m starting to neglect the things i have to do and the people i love. my kid needs me and my family needs me. i can’t lose my spot in school cuz I’ve worked so hard to get to where i am.

so day 1. my last day 1. it’ll be harder than the first time but i just have to keep one foot in front of the other.

i might be MIA for the next few days but i’ll try to check in and let you know how everything is going. this page keeps me sane.