I’ve only been snorting meth for a week but it’s been every single day for this whole week. Nobody knows including my bf who I am with everyday. I made a post a day or two ago about how to quit and I know I need to.. I want to so bad but I’m so scared of the crash and withdrawal. I have a kid I still need to take care of and I’m scared of my bf and family finding out.

I wasn’t going to do any today and throw it away but I couldn’t. I did a little bump this morning and no matter how hard I tried, I couldn’t flush the rest.

I’ve read all the posts about the withdrawals and the websites about detox and I just don’t know it I’m strong enough to go through that… but then I think of my son and I know that I NEED to.

I just had an appt with my psych doctor today and was put on an SSRI for my depression. Is this going to help once I stop? Ugh. I know what I need to do but at the same time I don’t. I wish I could talk to someone about this.