I was a fairly regular user since June to August last year, after that regular for sure lol. Last week I decided to quit, but I was terrified because I heard so many bad experiences, how hard it is etc. Everyone is different, addictions vary, but after initial cravings I’m better than ever! Moreso, I gained new appreciation for life. I was very tired at first, sure, walking for five minutes was exhausting as hell. But I kept myself busy with newly found ambitions, did a lot of online personality tests to see who I really am and who I could be without speed. We live in a time where everything is possible, people earn millions by posting dancing videos, find true love through computer screens, learn and improve real-life skills with millions upon millions of apps and websites designed to help you with that. There’s so much more to life, and we all have so much to offer, starting with the fact that we’ve seen the best and the worst of ourselves through addiction and may not know what we want, but sure as hell know what we don’t.

Like I said, we’re all different, recovery can and will last longer for some, but it’s so fucking worth it. In comparison to some of you, my time as a junkie was very short! First of all, I admire you. I don’t know if I could endure that, and seeing people going through little highs and a lot of fucking lows is so saddening but makes me so proud that you decided to take this huge step in your life. It takes time, and don’t look at that as an all that bad of a thing. You have a story like no other, and you deserve to be here to share it and tell the world that anything is possible.

I would recommend spending the money we would usually spend on crap to buy supplements, vitamins, perhaps a gym membership (I’m shy so I just worked out at home - pro tip for girls, Daisy Keech workouts are amazing lol).

People are happy to be around me now. I am happy to be around myself now. The love speed gave me temporarily is now replaced with that. And it’s so much better.