One month off that shit and getting into the gym 7 days a week and eating clean and healthy foods has not only been the most cathartic, rejuvenating experience I have had in a long damn time, I am in the best shape of my shape of my life. I am able to share my story with others and not get teary eyed from remorse but rather knowing I fucking did it. I got through the overwhelming cravings, the urge to stimfap for hours and throwing money away that only would ever lead to my demise. I wear my Sobriety date around my neck everyday now as reminder that Act 2 of my life has begun and that this comeback is personal. I hope that one day someone will hear my story and use it as inspiration to lay down the pipe, stand firm and face the Monster and have the will to be able to defeat it too. Then they become the man/women God intended them to be. Please take care of yourselves, know that this war you are fighting with this life altering chemical can be won and you are worth fighting for.