My smoking buddy and I had a really long sesh tonight- nearly three hours! That in itself was miraculous. Lately it's been half an hour if we're lucky. But tonight, O ye gods! We were skin on skin for an entire movie! So blissful and unfuckwithable right now! I figured we must have smoked half a cart--- turns out nope, not even a quarter of one. And sativa never leaves me peaceful.

Fuckin' A, man, it turns out when you open yourself up to just whatever the universe has in store for you, life is abundant,even in its tumult and horror.

I think God has masked God's true vastness from us, and has allowed us to create different versions of the same God, as a mercy, because the fullness is incomprehensible to anyone in this plane. Too bad God apparently failed to plan for the generational hatred and violence in the Holy Land, but hey nobody's perfect.

I say this just to say, I could never have dreamed I'd find happiness here, in these bodies, in this time of my life, and I see clearly the difference. This is the only relationship I haven't feared. Trust is beautiful.