i don't have many people i can tell this to IRL so i'm posting it here. a few days ago, i took a third of a cheapie d8 edible that usually makes me feel relaxed. combined that with yin yoga on the down dog app before bed, just to unwind and get sleepy.

bro. tell me why it was one of the most blissful experiences of my liiiife. i felt like i could hold each pose as deeply as possible. completely at ease in my body, which i usually don't feel present in. the particular routine involved a lot of back and lower body stretches. ended up in an insane string of hands free orgasms - one for each side of the figure 4 stretch, one in savasana. this is not something that's happened to me before, sober or otherwise.

i read tarot as well, and the whole week i'd been pulling the empress and various cups in reverse. interpreting those as a lack of restorative / receptive / feminine energies. since then, i haven't encountered those pulls nearly as often. i feel like this experience helped me refill those cups, if only momentarily.

cannabinoids are great. pleasure is pretty great.