Like, my friend saw me outside smoking a cigarette. She was going to work (she's a cop), and I asked her if she had any cool cases recently. She started smoking too, we talked, and then she was like "oh holy shit I'm late!" We said our goodbyes and she left.

I'm worrying because, what if she's late because of me and gets into an accident and dies? What if saying this is gonna cause it? What if I just jinxed it? And now I'm more worried!

Part of it is the weed, but a bigger part of it is a car accident I got into about a decade ago. I feel like I was always like that to some extent before the accident and ever before pot, too! But I'm not sure...

I deactivated Facebook today, I have no more outlet for my thoughts! So here lol

PS, I know this isn't r/doesanybodyelse