I'm diagnosed with bipolar 2 disorder. I notice that my B2D involves extended periods of depression that can last for days. I don't seem to have episodes of mania. Other mental health or mindset issues are poor relations with blood relatives, nihilism, cynicism, etc.

I've been interested in stoicism ever since I heard about it. I think it can help improve my life, but I haven't been able to bring myself to commit to it. I make attempts, but then fall out of interest. I think the subsequent loss of interest or motivation is because of my mental health and mindset issues. I struggle to bring myself to read any literature outside of my fields, which are the natural sciences, particularly health and life sciences. Typical direct words of encouragement like "Just do it," don't help.

I also have to balance the stoic philosophy with my current life. I'm a working grad student, so I still don't have a solid career whil trying to earn my degree. I'm also into fitness and martial arts, so I dedicate time to those activities.

I consider myself as a loner. I have no people I can call as friends. I have people with whom I'm friendly or get along, but I can't say I'm friends with them. If there was an emergency, I won't come running for them, and I don't expect them to do the same for me. It's lonely, but I think that stoicism can help me accept and be comfortable with it.