Hi all! I was the lucky duck that found 4fmph and some meth while cleaning her house this weekend. Was a glorious discovery, ive been on a break from drugs for almost 7 months now and had actually just placed an order! Anyway I've been proud of myself for not letting the addict drive the weekend. It would have been an epic disaster! Instead I paced myself and didn't do all that much - still have enough for days at this rate. But my poor body is saying BITCH I need a nap! Lol. I took an ill timed last line last night and ruined my chance for sleep. Was a meth zombie today. The dopamine dump is starting to show its evil head. I'm not expecting a huge crash or anything, just the dark places my brain can go during a come down can get fucked up. My GOAL was to moderate and avoid a crash but by pushing my playtime one more 24 hours I made it inevitable. Lesson learned. And its not going to be that bad. I'm letting myself get stuck in my head. I'll be right as rain tomorrow morning. Thanks for letting me get that off my chest! ML💙