Before becoming dependent on multiple substances I years and years ago I could enjoy music without having to be on substances like stimulants and gabapentinoids. Now the only time I can enjoy music now is when I’m stimulants basically. If I were to stop one day would any joy come back at all eventually? That shit worries me fr. I wished I never used started using shit fr. Now i could go back and do it again.. I’d be bullshitting myself if I say that I would have never picked up shit. Do yourselves a favor to the ones that have not been dependent on anything to not lose your grip on it. Drugs can be used responsibly from weed all the time way to meth and heroin. I wished the U.S done ibogaine treatments :(