I few years ago I was completely anti-cigarrette like I didn't even understand why people smoked cigarrettes when it provided no noticiable high l, just a head rush. One day I started to inform myself about MDMA and people said that smoking while on M is incredible, so I tried it in partes when I was on MDMA and it felt so good I just wanted to smoke cigarettes after cigarrette until the MDMA effects wore off but my rule was (I only smoke if I take MDMA). Another day I try it when I was on speed and it felt also really good and calming. A few montts ago instead of taking speed that I couldn't afford at the time I instead started taking recreational doses of my Vyvanse (90-120mg) and it also felt good to smoke while stimmed on Vyvanse. This december 2024 I had a lot to study, took medium-high doses of Vyvanse (45-90mg) and started to smoke a few cigarrettes a day since it potentiated te effects because is an MAOI and nicotine has nootropic effects. Then I quitted for more than a week and instead I smoked joints but no cigarrettes at all. But as soon as I relapsed on Vyvanse my cravings came and at first I started smoking even on just 30mg and wven worst since some of my uncles smoke and me and my family went to my countryside I saw my uncle smoking in front of me and even smoked some days where I did not took anything (although I had some amphetamine withdrawal I think) So I would steak 1 to 3 cigarrettes. Then after being sober again from the 1st to the 4th of January I relapsed that night taking 120mg and smoking 5 cigs, after that I just took 30mg daily and I have been smoking between 3 to 5 cigarrettes a day. I fuckin hate this addiction but is like I feel so good while smoking on amphetamines and then I regret. I ussually odd bought cigarrettes because I wanted to know how much was smoking and didn't want to spend 5€ or more for a pack of cigarrettes.

Yesterday I wanted to just spent all my money in buying some 1P-LSD from a trusted verdor on the Internet and I was going to order it with a few friend because the more you buy the cheaper the dose is, ended up having an argument with a friend because I wanted to order the shipment to my city and he wanted to order it to his town so it was my ego against his ego and didn't order it, then went to yoga, came home and Vyvanse started wearing off and I instead spent 5€ for a full pack of cigs.

How can I quit this terrible addiction? I just want to become spiritual again and stop smoking cigs and even stop my Vyvanse prescription in the futuro but it's like due to my impulse decisions and me not having enough money never really get psychedelics so I started to become less spiritual and more impulsive an even egotistical if I'm taking my meds