So l've been using Adderall/rc/meth/wtv tf is in that little orange bitch for 2-3 months now, I didn't realize how quickly the time flew by (and obviously for a reason!) I thought as long as I'm not using it EVERYDAY it'll be okay. So I just used it sporadically, it helped that I was smoking weed and nicotine daily.

I know my prefrontal cortex is having a lot of difficulties doing work or understanding and processing shit, I just don't wanna do anything and get confused so much. I only snorted a little yesterday, and later took more ketamine than I expected cause I dropped it!! But anyways I think it helped me feel more capable today.

I'm still feeling my brain just reject anything, I just don't want to do anything. But I still am because I know I have to but it's just so fucking hard and I need some reaffirmation that it won't last forever and everything will be okay again

I'm a female so ik I'm more prone to its negative effects, and the ridiculously high doses combined w/ the weed DISPO- so more chemicals. Also still clench or just have the urge to tense my jaw/teeth when I'm not on it (or maybe just cause I'm still being affected by the half life of it?) Just more info to asses whether I have permanent damage. Are there any ways to tell, or am I'm being paranoid abt this?