Currently on an exam/essay related Adderall and gabapentin binge. Didn’t sleep for a second Tuesday night, felt rly tired last night/early this morning, and was shooting for 5-6 solid hours of sleep.

Woke up after 1.5 hours for some reason. I feel completely normal and lucid, which is weirding me out, because I felt pretty fucked before I fell asleep. Perhaps 1.5hrs is all I really needed…?

Anyways. I have to write an entire essay by tonight. I’m thinking of saying fuck sleep, eating something right now, and washing a good 75mg down w/ some coffee.

The question is: how stupid or risky is this, in terms of psychosis? My record is only 3 nights without a wink of sleep, only done it a few times w both addy and propylhexedrine.

By that 3rd night, I do recall having minor, subtle visual and audio hallucinations - seeing mosquitoes and little bugs in my peripheral, screens looking a bit “wavy,” association a non-musical sound with having a musical tune, etc. I was completely aware of what was going on the whole time, and my family has no history of psychotic disorders. I feel like, to an extent, I am pretty psychosis-resistant. even on moderate doses of shrooms and DXM, and large ketamine doses, as far as I can tell, I’ve always retained core, factual perceptions of myself, and the world around me, and I am generally able to look past the effects of the drug and not be swept into delusional thinking.

Anyways. this was kind of pointless but yea. curious to hear others’ thoughts.