Hi everyone,

Friday I've tried to boof (plug) 120 mg of amphetamine paste, a friend of mine tested the paste and it was like 46% amphetamine and the rest was caffeine. Not so bad. After a few minutes of stretching I felt little dizzy. Not so much enjoyed, a little bit more focus but I felt a little bit knocked out by the dose. I wanted a more psychedilic trip so I've take 2 LSD tab which I know, not a really strong LSD but just wanted to have a more psyched trip.
One hour later I've boofed 150mg of MDMA and another 120 mg of amphetamine paste. Trip was really nice, I've enjoyed a lot. I was more endurant to do my things, definitely more focus, a little bit more euphoric, certainly due to the MDMA. I've tracked my heartbeat using cheststrap and gone into 170 bpm at some point but it was ok.

Next day was a mess, I couldn't do any other thing that laying down in my sofa. I'm into endurances sports so I use to run and cycle a lot during the week but I didn't have the strength to do anything.

Day 2 I've managed to do 90km 900m elevation gain in bike. Still feeling like shit, didn't enjoyed that much but satisfied to have it done.

Day 3 A little hike of 15km and 1200m elevation gain. Didn't want to be there but usually I enjoy spending time in mountains.

We're at day 4 today, still feeling like shit, want to throw up everything, feeling agressive with my relative. Bothered by anything. I feel I'm going nowhere, I'm anxious and I'm really pessimistic about my future.

I've started to take some 5-HTP as I usually do after taking MDMA but I feel like amphetamine is adding something bad to the equation. I won't use this anymore I think because I was feeling really dizzy and nevertheless I would say it's a speedy thing. Any advices for healing my brain and my mood ? I feel like I'm at the bottom