[Rant about dosages, long read] I’m prescribed Vyvanse 50mg for ADHD, but because of chemical imbalances, trauma, etc. I’ve been drawn towards using them recreationally.

The most I’ve taken was 160, but I believe there’s a ceiling, so I switched to 120, and when I got upped to 50mg settled at 100mg.

100mg semi-weekly -obvious euphoria but underlying sadness in the background coming in waves. Extremely distressing and ruins the mood. It makes me want to smoke, like a lot. I end up smoking a lot more weed than I would’ve if I was sober. I’d say quite dysphoric.

-anxiety isn’t that bad normally, but goes through the roof sometimes

-comedown hits like a TRAIN. I get very depressed and once again, smoke a lot more than I would normally. If I had a benzo script it’d be different, but something tells me that my psychiatrist won’t prescribe me a benzo with my stimulant lmao.

50mg near daily I’ve been doing this the last 9 days and it’s made such a difference.

-much slighter euphoria, I’m not feeling like any moment I’m going to explode with joy, definitely the worst part but still a mood lift nonetheless. However, once again the sadness is there but very slight. It doesn’t feel like my world is crumbling apart.

-No anxiety whatsoever.

-comedown is so smooth it’s basically nonexistent and I can hold off the weed until nighttime.

[TLDR: The only good thing about recreational doses is the near-explosive euphoria. Everything else makes it pretty dysphoric. 50mg daily gives me just enough mood boost, no comedown or anxiety, the best of all worlds, except euphoria.]