I’ve used ecstasy around 4-5 times years before, and yes, those especially first times were amazing but it didn’t make me addicted, until one time I had sex on the drug.

After discovering MDMA and sexuality together, I started to use the pill and did hours of masturbation in solo sessions, didn’t even want to have sex with someone, I just want to be alone.

Then I abused the drug this year. I’ve used it around 9 times at least 3 pills per roll.

It’s been 3 months now I am sober. But I am constantly thinking about next roll, and many times I make combos of alcohol and weed together, which is near-like MDMA and masturbation experience.

I am sure that I am not addicted to MDMA, I don’t chase that euphoria, but I feel like I am addicted to MDMA masturbation for hours.

What is your suggestions? Does anyone have any similar experiences and consequences?

I am getting sometimes even high from just thinking it.