Now that I’ve calmed tf down, and tried cutting down that long ass shit, Im tryna ask if the symptoms I describe are similar to meth? I get my addys for $10 and they’re the orange 30s. Also if tolerance affects any symptoms?

I took 60mg two weeks ago it had a great focused high, better emotion regulation, but trouble falling asleep and hearing a silent banging swing in my hearing towards the end of the night/early morning that I couldn’t sleep.

The fourth day after took 45-50 which was nice until my body was using my anxiety to scream for food I wasn’t giving it (so that’s on me). The second day after, took 15-20mg and was a lil paranoid and couldn’t really write, I’d spend 10 minutes revising one sentence, and it slowed down how much work I got done. Taking 30 on the fourth day after didn’t last long since I only slept two hours the night before, but the energy drink boosted me up to start fixating on my sentences again.

The next day took 75-80mg sublingually (as I did with my other doses) and was DEFINITELY feeling it, peacefully doing lil chores and enjoying my homework again. My body felt very “up” like a fully charged battery almost, and when I stood up my hearing became muffled and vision blurred. At the four hour mark I noticed a shift, the sentence fixation begin setting in and it actually made me a really fucking great paper but took the whole day of my constant and uncontrollable revisions.

The 1/3 part of the pill I didn’t finish earlier I tried snorting later and it was definitely different. I was very hyped and decided to exercise which was not a good idea! After every rep my heart felt so weak so I decided it be best to stop.

Through all these doses I have noticed a change in my vision, with more floaters and shadows in the corner of my eyes, these sort of hallucinations increased after having snorted a couple more lines, also smoking weed and nic I assumed added to that. Only sleeping two hours before waking up to do more lines.

Also fell and scraped my knee so maybe the mix of endorphins being released increased it efficiency? Anyway, only from snorting that shit I felt spacey but like “on the go” and very determined to finish my work. So much so that my restlessness in class (from my paranoid opinion) seemed suspicious. In my math class the professor had asked for us to take a picture of something on the board, I did and had my phone in front of of my paper to copy, except I kept looking back and forth from my paper to the board without writing anything cause I kept forgetting. Once I realized I must look like a fucking tweaker rn I got scared but after a little talk with myself in the mirror felt better than ever.

This talking to myself continued in a positive way, just feeling good about myself in every way, I hadn’t experienced this feeling to this extent through sublingual administration. Nor the intense sensuality from looking at yourself in the mirror 😂 So, did I snort meth?