Hello. English is not my first language, sorry for mistakes.

My drug of choice is mmc or cmc. Whatever I get. Last night I got myself 2grams, two separate baggies. The usual.

I use alone at home and do things like others here. Clean, study, get hyper focused on something. This time I wasn’t cleaning much as I was doing some projects on pc. I keep my things nice and tidy, everything in my house has its place, it is rare that I would not find something I am loking for.

Not today. Oh my god, for the first time I felt like those meth heads that are shown on TV. I thought I was going crazy.

Baggie number one was getting lighter and lighter, so I wanted to grab another one. I reach for my usual spot (desk drawer) - it’s not there. Hmm, maybe it is in another spot.. nope. At first I cleared all drawers that were around me, looked under sofa, desk, carpet. Cleared drawers again, went through thrash. Nothing! Then I got desperate and started vacuuming with a sock on, started to take furniture apart. Tried to retrace my steps and everything. I was making a mess and I looked crazy. This night I spent most time at my computer, so I knew it must be somewhere there. Then I kinda lost hope, decided to sit at my computer chair and for the last time checked the drawer (which I cleared like 3 times, checked everything piece by piece) and there it was. Exactly where I always put it. I have no words.

Glad I could “find” my stuff, because I was so scared that someone else would find it. I think I will go to rest 😅