Hi! So Im very messed up and I always have issues abusing my script. I am FINE when I don’t have it. I’m on lexapro and trazadone and I date daily and I feel level and balanced. Then, when I get my script I can’t help myself and I binge. I feel a deep odd depression for days after. I will sit and cry for days about my dogs dying or my life sucking. I can’t clean , my anxiety is out the roof. Sometimes I’ll smoke weed, but weed has been making it worse. I’ll even call into work. This time, I felt almost scuicidal the depression was SO bad. I eat, take vitamins, water etc. I am thinking it’s time to end this cycle. Any tips? I don’t want to feel this depressed. I neglect the dogs who love, I neglect my living space and don’t clean. Why do I go back to this even though I feel great without it? Thanks for the help