im in my 20s. I tried MDMA once with my friend. I think we snorted lines off his phone or dabbed it under our tongue/ in our gums. I can’t remember. It was real mdma crystals, but no effect and we put this down to the fact we were both on an SSRI. I’m not on the SSRI anymore

That was months ago, I wanna try again. would be anxious trying it for the first time (if we don’t count that other time) on a night out because I have IBS and don’t know if it will give me diarrhea (mdma being a stimulant). So I want to try it at home and that way I’m near a toilet.

I don’t have any friends so would be alone - does that increase my chances of having a bad time on it? Is it okay for me to do it alone for my first time? I would make sure to stay in my room while im high but I’m worried my family would notice the come down effects on me the next day. That CANT happen. Idk what excuse I would make up

Does mdma make you less likely to tidy up after yourself? I worry I would be so enjoying the high that I would forget to hide the evidence and my mum would discover it in my room.

I’d probably try and get some mdma powder or crystals and how much of it should I snort? As a complete beginner