Before I got diagnosed with ADHD, I didn't know that people tend to use coke to self-medicate for the condition (before they get diagnosed and put on prescription medication).

In my self-medicatating era, I got lost in coke and didn't think much of amphetamine. I think it was more because of the instant hit of coke. Amphetamine can hit hard and will last for hours, but those who have done both will know what I mean by coke hitting harder and faster.

I was losing control of my life and had to give up coke. So I moved to amphetamine. I was losing friends, girls, money, and sleep. I had to stop. But how?

Thankfully, my ADHD friend and I talked about his condition one day. I thought, "that's me!" Another friend had it and another. It all started to click together.

Long story short, after getting diagnosed and put on Vyvanse, I told myself that I wouldn't fuck this up. I had found this amazing medication to help me get my life together. I knew what was in it and could find my purpose again. But it took over me.

I was now staying up for days without having to "redose" every 40 minutes to an hour. It looked great, but my body and mind were starting to fail. My extremities were numb and the hair on my legs fell out. I entered psychosis and thought my life was over.

I can't go back to that life. But for me, to answer the question I posed, amphetamine is on another level (due to the long and intense high). But it nearly cost me everything.