On the first day I dissolved 100mg of meth and boofed it, at around 3:00pm. I’ve struggled with stim fapping for a while and feel disgusting after I do it, so I tried not to think about doing it and played video games instead. I played r6 for a little bit, but got pissed because I was getting stomped, so I started playing deep rock galactic, which was a huge mistake. Me and a couple of friends played for about 6 hours and had a good time, then I got off and boofed 200mg, which is obviously stupid. Not even 10 minutes later I’m watching porn on my 85” tv and going ham on my dick. I edged for 5 hours to shit I normally would never watch, but I wasn’t disgusted like I usually am when it was over. I spent the remainder of the night listening to music and staring at myself in the mirror, literally for over 3 hours, and I was making myself rock solid. At this point I impulsively felt the need to redose, so I did, with 100 more mgs. I didn’t give a fuck about what I thought going into this, by the second day I was filled with sexual rage and wanted to fuck, I didn’t care if it was a man or woman, which I’ve never felt before. I blew over 500 bucks on cam girls and wanted to fuck an escort, but didn’t end up getting one. After a mildly long stroke sesh I felt kind of cracked out and hopped back on drg. I played 1 mission and was getting aroused when I was killing glyphids, but it wasn’t unsettling to me. After the mission I went into the wardrobe on the drop pod and started edging and fingering my ass to different outfits on my dwarf, the scout class to be specific. I moved around and looked at different things, even inanimate objects, and kept masturbating. I did this for what seems like the whole day. It was like I was in a trance and had no sense of time. I smoked meth after this I don’t even remember how much, this was the first time I didn’t boof it. And I went straight back to it. I started a haz 1 mission and moved with one hand and stroked/fingered with the other. I switched to salvage escort at one point so I could nut to Doretta. I had nutted multiple times at this point right on my couch/carpet, and my dick was throbbing. I was so aroused by everything I could see, especially the glyphids and lootbugs. When other dwarfs would join my mission I would stare at them and give them a rock and stone while I stroked to them. Everytime I found red sugar I boofed a little meth because I thought it was funny. This bled into the third day and i was minor having hallucinations at this point, followed by severe paranoia. I didn’t drink water or eat at all during this. My dick was destroyed at this point, it was a raw, bleeding mess. I kept going in and out of consciousness, and got the sense that I was dying. I also thought I spilled boof juice out of the syringe everytime I used it, so I was crawling on the floor looking for any wet spots. After a little while I laid down, probably staring at the ceiling for god knows how long, but I eventually went to sleep. I felt like absolute shit when I woke up, and was horrified by what I had done. All of my other times using meth were shameful, but this was unhinged. I beat my cock for 2 days straight to one of my favorite games that has the most wholesome community. I am ashamed and I still don’t understand why I did this. And I’m sorry to all of you who have played the game and are repulsed by this. Rock and stone.