it is so hard and even tho my friends and coworkers know i'm autistic and are supportive, i know they don't understand how deeply it affects me. and i still mask to a degree around most people and i spend so much time overanalyzing social situations and wondering if i said something right or wrong to progress the relationship and my abusive ex took our kids away from me and i feel empty without them, and i never know which friend i'm supposed to talk about it with and how much emotional support is too much to ask for because i don't want to be a burden.

i just am tired and stressed out and i feel like even tho i have people in my life no one truly understands. and i needed to vent without filtering myself at all. thanks