it seems my main interest above all else is fundamentally a love of mastering new things and becoming more well rounded. i love the process of developing skill, and i make a skill out of anything i do, even the mundane, like dishes and shopping. it’s like a game of cleverness. the outcome of this is that i have an unusually large number of skills, interests, abilities, and things i know quite a lot about. i am also a very fast learner because i have developed the skill of learning skills, and it’s extremely rewarding, so i spend a lot of time progressing in mastery of new things. the range is enormous, because the best part to me is the mastery itself, rather than the actual thing. i want to become a fully rounded human, so i enjoy developing every aspect of myself i can— mind, heart, and body. i need a very high level of stimulation, intellectually, artistically, and physically. anything i can develop skill in, i pursue it. i’m a big fan of anything from philosophy, art, and botany, to solo sports.

i don’t understand how people are rewarded by starting a million projects and finishing none. i am only rewarded by the end. is this Ne vs Ni? other IEIs don’t seem nearly as active as me in pursuing goals and mastering new things constantly. i can’t relate to the assertion that IEIs do not know how to be efficient, because it comes easy to me in the form of skill, just so long as i can be highly creative and precise. maybe subtype and enneagram plays a part, because i am Dominating(or Creative- not sure) and 4w3.

edit: i feel very frustrated when something evades my mastery, including myself. i have very high self control. budgeting and dishes are endlessly annoying because i can’t seem to keep them from making a mess. i’m an extremely precise person, even in the way i walk and talk(not to say i don’t have fun; very far from it). i am not sloppy unless i consider it a waste of my energy, and i cut corners on tedium. i am direct and want only the essential and most elegant. i struggle to understand why people can just mindlessly bump against things until they happen to get it sort of right. it’s irritating.