My brother lost his battle with alcoholism relatively recently. I've thankfully not experienced the same degree of it that he did, but I've known I don't always have control of my relationship with alcohol. For a variety of reasons, I've just felt over alcohol recently. I didn't even want a champagne toast tonight. I miss my brother, and I don't want to go down that path. I feel so much healthier and happier without it, and this is the first year since I was 21 that I'll wake up feeling great on Jan 1. I'm still up super late, but I'm planning all the fun things I can do this year without being hampered by hangovers. Some of his last wishes were that I'd find the kind of happiness that I have now, and I want to do him proud.