Holy shit I never ever thought I would make it to this point but I have! I am so unbelievably proud of myself, I have managed to quit a rediculous benzo addiction, went to rehab for a month and tapered off over 4 months had 2 seizures and ended up in ICU for 5 days. Usage was unbelievably high and the taper was brutal I did it way too quickly and was basically shaking for 4 month and didn’t sleep more than 3 hours a night for like the first month. I have made it!!! I now sleep perfectly and back in college doing really well. My social anxiety is still hard to cope with and I can’t look anyone in the eye still, but working on it through therapy and antidepressants have been helping. I am now present for my wife and kids, I have a car. It’s unbelievable how much my life has improved since quitting. I love this community and I love you all you got this!!! Always remember you are worth it and you will beat this!! You have to fight like your fighting for your life against this addiction, you will get your life back if you put in the effort. Last thing I want to say is quitting is the easy part the hard part now is that that devil on my shoulder is whispering in my ear about how much benzos would help and make me happier and stuff. Tell that voice to shut the fuck up! I get physically mad when I tell it to myself hahah. Fuck that toddler in my brain that just wants pleasure and instant dopamine!!!! I can do this, I am doing this, I will beat this!!! You can tooo you got this ! Thank you all for my sobriety means more than you know 😁