I am 34, male.

Last sip of alcohol: 2023Dec16, Last cannabis use: 2023Jan08, Last cocaine use: couple of years ago, Last psychedelic use: Fall 2022,

Last night I had a breakthrough in my comfort level with my sobriety. Since January I have nearly become a recluse-not because I’m scared about relapsing but mainly because of identity issues.

“Who the fuck am I without drugs and alcohol?”

It is Pride weekend here in San Francisco and the city gets live. I decided to go out with friends and push myself to be comfortable and sober anywhere they wanted to go. This was my second or third time going out with my friends as they bar hopped since January. We stayed put in a lesbian bar with reggaeton playing all night and I had a blast; we danced the entire night. I felt zero discomfort on the dance floor and just felt like I belonged there. I did not have one insidious thought of relapse.

Normally in the past I would drink and pregame to get myself comfortable before doing anything outside on a night like this, but last night I proved to myself I can enjoy myself in a very stimulating social setting without drugs and especially alcohol. The best part is I can remember everything we did lol!

My friends were proud of me and support my sobriety. I’m looking forward to our next outing and I can guarantee to myself I will be sober.

Good luck to everybody in their journey.