I will warn you now and say this post will be long and probably contain some ranting, total honesty and straightforwardness about me and what I'm looking for, hopefully some humor, and most definitely some awesome sprinkled on top.

If you're still reading, and not scared off I'm going to attempt to tell you a lot about me and some things that are dealbreakers for me. I'm terrible at talking myself up or even knowing what to say about me because I'm just me. First off, I really love life despite all the crap we get to deal with at times. I'm a pessimistic optimist in that I think the whole world is going to shit at times and we're all doomed to repeat our mistakes in history but at the same time I love the people in my life, I love where I live, I love meeting new people, love my career, and am constantly amazed by the beauty of the world we live in. Secondly, I'm an extroverted introvert and while I love meeting new people I also need quiet at times to retreat in my own head and recharge. I'm also a very open and honest person because I believe it lets people know the true you and appreciate the same about others. I believe the reason people don't succeed in relationships is that they don't talk enough about the important stuff to them which are the core values they hold.

I want to put this in here even though some people say to not talk about religion early on. I disagree. I believe strongly in God and to me having a partner that believes the entity exists is important to me. I do go to church on occasion with my mom but I'm also not someone who believes in man-made religion. I think mankind is flawed and that God is ultimately all about love and his teaching gets perverted by man and turned into judgment. I personally have been deeply hurt by the church but I remain steadfast in knowing that God exists and having my faith. I will also never force my beliefs on others because I think you have to come to them on your own for them to be real. But it would be hard for me to be partners with someone who is a complete atheist.

Humor is a big part of my life as well and I love to joke because life is already too serious to not have fun with it. I like everything from dad jokes to inappropriate humor. Here's one I heard the other day; Why did the old man fall in the well? Because he couldn't see that well. It's so bad but makes you chuckle or giggle nonetheless.

I like to think I'm an intelligent person, most of the time at least, and I'm not threatened if you're smarter than me. I love great conversations from general things about everyday life to deeper subjects as well. I'm a kind, caring, empathetic and giving person and really need a partner who isn't only a taker.

I'm an INFJ in personality and feel things deeply typically. I'm also a demisexual person and can't be involved physically with someone until there is a strong connection and trust is built.

One big thing that I need to mention because it is a dealbreaker for me. I don't want kids of my own in life. I want to be able to concentrate on growing my business and traveling a lot for pleasure and business. I would never want to be a long-distance father nor do I want to give up my ambitions in life. My close friends will be having a kid in the next year or so and I will fully enjoy being a rad uncle and spoil them rotten. I love kids but also like to give them back to the parents after we have a blast. I'm somewhat of a big kid at heart still.

Lastly, before I go on to other things because it will matter, I'm a big white guy and will never be skinny. I love food too much and hate the gym. Despite this, I am working my way into better shape lately so I can enjoy life more fully as time passes and be able to experience more epic journeys. It would be awesome if someone would like to work on this together a bit.

As far as interests go with me I do have many and enjoy trying new things except vegetables. ;-) But seriously, I absolutely love traveling and seeing new places in the world. This actually became my job somehow and I'm a travel agent. For me it's an amazing job and kinda allows me to do it from anywhere there is WiFi.

I love a good movie or binging a tv series. I greatly enjoy music from a lot of different genres and love seeing a great concert. One of my hobbies is shooting boudoir photography. I do it because I enjoy the art of it but I also love to see the expressions on peoples faces when they realize despite insecurities they have, they truly are beautiful. I also have a great love of cultural things. I love a great museum or play or musical or Ted Talk. I’m a very curious person by nature and love to learn. I listen to podcasts or audiobooks in the car most of the time. I'm probably never going to be a let's take a hike person unless we're in Yosemite or somewhere special or a let's take a walk on the beach kinda guy. But I used to play golf and many sports back in the day so I'd love to get back into that stuff. I do greatly enjoy sports still and am a big football fan. I try to not have it rule my life anymore but I still enjoy watching games.

So what I'm looking for is both simple and yet so very complex. I want someone to compliment me in the ways that are important but also have no problem with you having friends or being an independent woman. I very much enjoy cuddling and just talking with someone I care about and I love doing romantic things for them. But I also don't mind if you want to take a girls weekend away. I want someone who is trustworthy and kind. I want someone who is also giving and caring, loves wholly but also isn't afraid of being herself and asking for what she needs. I grew up with a mom who ran a business and was a very strong woman and so therefore to me I like a strong woman who is driven and knows what she wants in life. I want someone who is excited to talk to me about everything in life even if it's mundane. I want to have great conversations and also learn about their interests and passions. Passion is a very big thing for me and I hope for you. This entire post is about passion for me. It's me, my hopes, and my dreams all rolled into a post. I realize that finding perfection isn't reality but I want a partner who is willing to work with me to make our own version of perfect and when it's not working we can talk about it openly and try to fix it.

To me, looks are not as important because I'm really looking for the person beneath. In 20 years we will look way worse but the inside will hopefully be even more beautiful. I would like someone who is comfortable with herself and open to being complimented when she looks good and not think I'm just lying. Just know though that my default answer to "do I look fat in this?" will always be nope. haha But seriously, I'm a big guy and there is no reason for you to believe I will have any problem with you if you aren't a size 4. And if you are a size 4 or lower, more power to you as long as you're happy with it for the most part.

Ok so this has gone on long enough and I hope at least one person made it to the end because you get a special prize. Losing 3 minutes of your life to learning about me! ;-) Hope you enjoyed some of it at least and maybe even all of it. I hope to hear from you and would love to chat more.