Recently one of my office colleagues got promoted and she invited me out for a quick meal. Since both of us were quite tired after office, we decided it would be best if we chilled for a bit at her place.

I was initially a little hesitant because of being super tired, but thought I should go for an hour and leave for home later. But the promotion got her excited and we ended up getting a few beers to celebrate.

Feeling super tired and now slightly drunk, we just started to lie down a little on the bed (albeit with some distance) and started watching random Youtube videos. Our heads finally touched and she caressed my hair and then one thing led to another before it led to a crazy make-out session. I really wanted to do it badly but she said she was saving herself for marriage.

Now I feel super guilty and awkward as I don’t even feel attracted to her, but she’s pretty chill and even closer than before. But none of us have addressed the elephant in the room, don’t think we intend to. I guess I will leave this here and start ignoring her attempts at closeness!

On a side note, still really want to do it (but not with her for sure)!