I'm emotionally in a very good place with my wife. I've only ever been physically intimate with her but she had 3 exes before me. I'm fairly hyper sexual, but super nerdy and introverted, so I never really got to date/fuck around.

The sex initially when we met when we were 23/24 was awesome. So loud we would wake up neighbors. But for the last couple of years we don't really have sex much. Physical touch is there, but for me that's not enough. I find myself watching porn, sexting with OF models or on NSFW subreddits to compensate.

I don't want to cheat. But I do need to have sex and constantly fantasize but never act on fucking other women. I have communicated wanting to have more sex with my wife but it doesn't really get anywhere. Discussing an open marriage is not possible - even suggesting it will break the fabric of my marriage. WTF do I do??? Continue jerking off to online fantasies? Help :(