this guilty pleasure of mine has been eating away at my brain for almost three years now.

I honestly love the thrill, attention and admiration whenever a white woman is craving me with her eyes and everything in between. but I also hate it when a hate filled Karen does whatever to get rid of my own kind. I love feeling some power and confidence whenever a white man wants me to be his first BBC or asks me to cuck and humiliate him. but I also hate your Harley riding grandpa calling me the hard R for walking in his path.

so it's a confusing but also very exciting kink for me. it's just like knowing you shouldn't be eating all the fat foods... but you also can't keep the craving and taste whenever it's on your mind.