I lost my virginity at 18 to a girl I had obsessed over since 9th grade. After fucking her in my first college dorm, several weeks later I fucked another girl I went to high school with that I had also liked (but didn't necessarily like her as much as my first).

However having sex with her unleashed something in me: a deep desire to fuck every girl I had ever found attractive. In this pursuit I have discovered that some of my longtime childhood friends were actually really good in bad, secret super sluts, and throat goats. Honestly I'm getting hard writing this confession.

There is one that I haven't been able to crack yet because she has a host of mental issues that essentially prevent her from performing normally in society. The sad part about that is she definitely grew up and has a body type that I absolutely would love to fuck for the rest of my life if I could only fuck one person it would be her. I've tried everything.... Like not just trying to have sex with her but actually trying to have a relationship with her. But I have unfortunately been unsuccessful and to be honest it's somewhat depresses me.