So I have been a bit absent lately, but that is because I meet a guy that I like and wanted to see where it gose. But honestly it's currently wearing me down soo much. He has a very time consuming job which I get I understand that his job takes most of his time but he never seems to put effort into talking to me (only messaged me first twice in a month) he dosent really seem interested in seeing me (I always have to ask/just show up) but when we are together we hug and kiss and that's great but I don't see him more then once or so a week and even when I do there is often others around that he dosent want to know that we have a kinda thing.

I have tried to say something to him but I am also very worried I will lose him but its getting harder to keep up with trying it feels like I am not worth it to him and that hurts a lot. I know this sounds stupid and guy but I can't help it, it's really wearing me down but I like him...