First off, I am a 24 year old transfemme/non-binary individual. I am pre-hrt, meaning I still have a flat chest and boxlike frame. It also means I still have a cock.

Ok so about 5 months ago I moved into a house with 3 other queer people. One of them will be the focus of this post, her name will be C.

C is just an inch or two taller than me, I'm 5'5. She has short length hair, currently a redhead. Like me, she dies it often. She has a fantastic round ass and long legs despite her height.

Now we live with 2 other people, F and S. F left for 12 days and during that time we were aware that S would be gone for most of it and would pop in some days but for the most part it would be me and C alone, except for F's dog a little terrier. Despite saying they would pop by sometime we didn't see S until the day before F came home. Which you should go read my other confession if you're interested.

The first couple days went by normally. I was interested in starting a tv show called Killing Eve, about a lesbian assassin and the detective that falls for her. I mentioned that I was going to go watch it in the other room and she said that she had wanted to watch it also and suggested we watch it together on the couch.

That first night we watched the entire first season, staying up until 3am. We watched the other 3 seasons in the following days.

Now I know this is gonna sound super fucked up and weird. Everytime someone in the show was killed by Villanelle, C would laugh. It was like more like a laugh of surprise and delight, like she was intrigued by it, maybe even turned on.

Now I had kinda thought about how hot she was before but this quickly turned into something else. I love the show and was absolutely obsessed with it, but her little chuckle was what I was looking forward to most. It gets me so turned on. I'm not one for degradation or humiliation, I really don't like it. But the night we finished the last season, I touched myself thinking of her laughing at me, I was so unbelievably hard and edged myself for almost an hour and a half.

Nothing happened while we were watching. We sat on opposite ends of a 3 seat couch with our other roommates dog between us. I wanted so badly to lay down and be spooned by her. To feel her nipples on my back whenever a sexy scene came on. To grind my ass into her then play dumb when she mentions it.

We would both occasionally stretch our legs as we were sitting cross-legged most of the time. So I asked her if she wanted to lay down once but she said no unfortunately.

I wasn't brave enough to ask her again and now the show is over and other people are in the house again. I don't know if I will get another opportunity like that but if I do what should I do? How should I approach the topic?

Also if anyone has show recommendations let me know, maybe I'll ask her to watch it with me