I needed a subject for a college photography project, a guy I've known of since middle school/high school reached out. I always kinda thought he was attractive. I spent 3 seperate days with him.

1. At one of his jobs. I was only suppose to tag along for 30 min. tops but wound up staying for 1hr 30min. Also we had deep conversation about managing mental health.

2. At his apartment. While testing weed for his job he was comparing something to sex, "nice and slow" with a smirk. I don't remember what he was comparing but I didn't verbally respond to it. Although, i secretly enjoyed it. Also we bonded over our love for pin ups and had another deep conversation about the concept of death. I sat in his room while taking photos of him playing guitar. Also, I wound up in a hot box situation and he honestly had the cutest stoned look on his face, occassionally blowing smoke in my face. Also his shirt was riding up and his 'V' line was showing. I was trying hard not to stare but I had a few glances. I think I caught him staring at me but i think he was just stoned. He drove me home later and we really got to know each other, family & politics mostly.

3. On a building job. It was for his family and they kept teasing him "You little seducer" despite both of us explaining this was for a project. He admitted that he was having an overwhelming week but didn't mind me being there. Overall, we got along really well and seemed to enjoy each other's company and, honestly my attraction grew. However, he occassionally brought up his gf and how much he loves her, & it's obvious he loves her in my opinion.

I still have strong, lust filled feelings for him but, out of respect, I'm not going to do anything with those feelings to jeopardize his monogamous happiness.

I have my fantasies though, and he's the primary reason I've been getting off lately. His strong hands groping me, his facial hair against my skin as he kisses me, especially my neck or against my pussy😻. Based on his comment on nice slow sex I keep imagining him and I having that type of sex. Also, it doesn't help I was at his apartment and in his room so, the setting of my fantasies are at various parts of his place.

Again, I'm not going to jeopardize his relationship with gf, I'm going to keep my feelings to my fantasies. I hope to become friends with him, even without the benefits.