It's taken a while, but I finally did it. I lost my virginity to my gf, and it was an experience that defies simple description. Honestly, sex feels like a weird mix of overrated and underrated. Everyone makes such a big deal about it, but at the same time, it can be kind of mundane after the fact IMO (a quote from Schopenhauer comes to mind “Directly after copulation the devil's laughter is heard”) That said, it was undeniably better than anything I'd experienced before (sexually ofc) which was just me masturbating alone, although I’ve mostly quit that :> . Seeing her naked body for the first time was surreal. It felt like she had an ethereal glow, her skin soft and warm against mine. When we finally came together, it felt like she was this perfect, tight glove enveloping me completely. The sensation was out of this world, but truthfully, the best part wasn't the actual act. The foreplay, the cuddling, the way her body would rub up against my side as we made out and rumbled and tumbled in bed….. the intimacy was unparalleled tbh. Feeling her breasts press against my chest, her hips rocking gently into mine, her fingers tangling in my hair... it was more intimate than anything I'd experienced before. I felt like I was drowning in her, completely consumed by her touch and scent and presence.

But ofc there was a certain awkwardness to it all. I mean, we're both still figuring this out so it is expected ngl. But at the same time, the enjoyment and connection we shared was indescribable. I've never felt closer to her than I did in those moments.

Of course, the disappointment came after it was over. As much as I tried to hold onto the feeling, reality crept back in and I wished we could stay lost in that moment forever. I guess that's just the nature of these things but I’m for sure looking to the next time I can fuck lol.

So overall, my review of sex is pretty positive but I wish it could last forever so that makes me a bit sad. Sorry for the long post!