A few years ago, I got divorced and decided my life should change. I needed to stop living for anyone but me. But a short time later I met another nice young girl that made me feel like a teenager and remarried. It didn't last long, things ended with us staying friends and we will still occasionally hook up and be reminded about what worked so well... and then realize quickly what doesn't. So as a rule, no more long term relationship for me, no more monogamy, no more serious deep stuff. I am far too broken at this point for any of that, and no one should want to get sucked into my mess and baggage. That isn't to say I don't enjoy meeting, flirting and fucking, and when I get a chance I do just that. 

The last couple of years I've been a self identified hedonist. A year or so ago a new intern in my office and I were hooking up often until she went back to school. At conferences, seminars, or while on travels for my job I've occasionally had a hook-up or fling with a colleague, or a random woman while there. Most of the time I don't get any action at all, I've had one or two women that like a FWB type thing but honestly even those start to turn into relationships and people catching feelings and I don't let them last. So I really only try to have these kinds of things happen when I'm traveling, and I'm always very into it and I enjoy myself as much as possible. They are short, only the duration of the travel, then we go our separate ways generally.

This week, I'm on a site inspection for a new facility. The work is made up of long days, crawling around a construction yard, checking the progress on lots of systems. A group of other engineers and mechanics in tow or on call as needed. Sometimes it is only me documenting issues, sometimes I have one or two others with me. In the yards about 75% of workers and onsite personnel are male, but somehow there are always some women in my groups. This time there have been four that I have been working with. One of the engineers from electro is very fit. Great smile and a nice body when not in the bulky PPE we have to wear. She is a twenty something woman, and her tits stick out like erasers from any shirt she has on, and of course we've been flirting a bit. Yesterday she cornered me in a mechanical skid and asked if we should get drinks later. Of course I agreed, and I wanted to get a BJ there in the skid (did I say she has a great smile? Think very big full lips, and then tell me I am wrong for wanting her on her knees in front of me,) but let's be real, that would have been incredibly dangerous and stupid on so many levels. Well last night there wasn't time, we literally stopped the inspection at 19:00, to pick up today at 07:00 again, did I mention the long days. I was beat, and I wanted a shower and sleep, but my colleagues insisted we get dinner at a pub near our hotel. I'm in my 50's I don't drink like I used to when I need to get up the next morning.

While out at dinner one of my other female colleagues informed me that the electro-girl was only interested in me to see "if rumors were true." I asked what she meant and my colleague playfully called me a slut. I've known her for years, since before my first divorce, so when she saw that I was honestly lost by her comment, she explained that I had gained a reputation and many of the women in the company knew I was the one to talk to when traveling and looking for fun. I didn't deny that I'd slept with more than a few of our coworkers, clients or colleagues, but I didn't really intend to sleep with someone every trip. It just always sort of happened.

She told me it sort of happened in the same way that people just sort of eat food. Apparently almost every woman in this project at least knew I could be counted on to give them a good evening and more if they showed interest. I can't deny it's easy for me to go from a flirty bit of banter to a naked bit of play. She let slip that she was hoping to get a ride too, but had seen me flirting with electro-girl so didn't know if I'd have time for her too. I was a bit shocked to find out I was the male version of the office slut. I mean I do love sex, I do find something sexy about almost every woman, and it isn't hard for me to enjoy a woman I think is attractive and sexy... so I guess I am easy.  I've always thought I was a bit above average size, which according to her this morning is me being far too modest. She said most of the women compare me to their first time in a Mercedes after driving a Fiat all their lives. I know it was a very nice ego boost. BUT now I have drinks planned with Electro-girl and I am left with a bit of performance anxiety, it shouldn't be a problem, but I have to wonder how I can use this to it's full advantage.