I [19F] have been with my ex boyfriend for two years and I have had sex multiple time with him, but I've always refused to suck him because I always thought it was degrading and as a proud feminist I always refused.

Two months ago we broke up and it was a mutual thing. I was going to out of state and he was too, but far far from me. So this brings me to last week, I was at a party with one of my friend and she introduced me to a guy that I taught was so hot. We talked a lot that night, we also drank a lot and he finally invite me to end this at his place.

When we got there, we grabbed a drink, sat on his couch and made out for a solid half an hour. Then, he looked at me in the eyes and told me he couldn't wait and that he was so hard and that I needed to do something about it. I was naïve and I thought he wanted to fuck me, witch I would have loved, but he told me to get on my knee in front of him like a ''good girl''.

Any other day, this statement would have made me furious, rage even. But for some reason, I just did it. It must have been the rhum coke he serve me that was especially strong, or the 30 minutes of making out that made me too horny.

I kneel down in front of him, while he was sitting on the couch and I unbuckled his belt, undid his pants and slid them down his legs, only to reveal the second dick I would have ever experienced. It felt so weird. It didn't really looked like my ex boyfriend. First, he was circumcised, witch I think is better looking at first glance. Second, he was well shaved, witch my ex neglected, this also made it better looking in my opinion. And finally, he was slightly bigger. Nothing crazy like in porn but he was still impressive. But again, I only ever had on other penis in my life so I can't compare.

I finally put my hand on it, the first contact of my cold hand on his warm cock made him moan a little, witch I taught was cute. I struggled to stroke it at first, since unlike my ex, it didn't have the skin to slide on it. I tried to move my hand up and down but it didn't took long before he told me to make it wet first and to ''come and lick it for him.'' Even today as I am writing this, I still can't comprehend what went trough me to accept getting threated like that. And again, I obliged, I lean in and start licking up and down the shaft, from the bottom all the way to the tip, to witch he answer ''Good girl''.

I was surprised that it tasted like nothing. For some reason, I thought it would have tasted bad but it really just like liking my arm. It's just skin. When I was done licking him up and down, I decide to put the head of his cock in my mouth. I struggled to keep my jaw open that much to make it fit, I didn't want him to feel my teeth. I would put the head, try to suction on it for a sec second and pop it out of my mouth making a ''pop'' sound. To witch he answer with a nice long moan.

I had no idea what I was doing, but I'm not gonna lie that I was really enjoying myself. I loved how sexual en intimate it was and I love how he would respond to how my mouth made him feel. At that point, I also felt a little bit of salty liquid whenever I would put my tongue on it. The taste wasn't bad, I was mostly scared it would be pee....

At some point, he said ''go deeper girl'' and ''I want to feel it deep in your mouth'' witch surprisingly turned me on. I tried to go deeper and deeper, trying to salivate as much as I could to make it slide more easily. I went deeper and deeper until I felt that famous ''gag reflex'' and immediately pulled it out. I looked up to my partner only to see him look deep into my eyes and say ''good girl''

I was a mess, I had saliva in my face and my gag reflex made my eyes water a little bit. That's when I felt his hand grab my shirt and pulled it up, revealing my bra. I removed my bra and felt so relieved by that and now I wasn't scared getting saliva on my shirt. He told me I was very sexy and put his hand on my head before pushing it back down on his cock.

This man I barely knew had his cock deep in my mouth with his hand over my head pushing up and down. I would keep getting close to my gag reflex but I still had a lot of saliva coming out from both side. It was super messy. This guy had just turned me into a real slut. I sort of came back to my sense at this point, I finally realized on how unhygienic and degrading this thing was, but at that point I felt like I was in too deep and I couldn't just stop there.

At this point, it must have been maybe 15 minutes that I have been kneeling in front of him, working on his shaft, with my jaw sore and me too nervous to say anything or stop this thing. He was making me go faster than ever, with the occasional moan and ''good girl'' comment. Studently, I felt him release my head and moan louder than before. I didn't have time to figure what was happening before I felt his cock shooting cum into my mouth. I felt it go deep down in my throat, witch honestly was a good feeling after several minutes of his cock rubbing on it. I pulled out slightly before feeling his hand back on my head preventing me from pulling it out. I felt several shot of cum in my mouth and on my tongue. Again, I didn't think it tasted that bad, but I just didn't like how he was holding me like that, using my mouth to empty his balls.

After all this, I just swallowed like it was nothing. Witch apparently was a turn on for him because he told me I was a good girl, again. He gave me a kiss, grabbed onto me, carried me to his room, dropped me on his bed, pulled on my pants and he went down on me. I wish I would have had time for a glass of water in between but overall, it was great.

So this is my story of my first blowjob, I think I really liked it more than I expected. Maybe I'll do it again later but I'm still not sure. I still think it's degrading but honestly I did like how slutty it was. That basically what brought me here to share it. I hope you liked it as much as I liked writing it.