I still I feel so stupid for letting this happen when I know I don't have any excuse, but I just couldn't bear to be without him for even one night after getting so used to having him by my side all the time.

I've been feeling so nervous about it since, but this was all during the holidays when my uncle was staying with us over Christmas and New Year. We promised each other we'd stay in our own rooms for the time he was here, and I really did try for the first night but I couldn't even get to sleep without him and I needed to feel close to him for comfort.

It got to like 2AM and everything was so silent that I thought I could sneak into his room without my uncle hearing anything. I only meant to go cuddle with him so I could finally get to sleep, but as soon as I was there it all turned into so much more. He's always been a lot for me and I couldn't help from gasping when he pushed himself inside me, but I thought we were quiet enough that everything would be ok so it didn't really cross my mind again after.

We spent the whole next day just hanging out and everything was normal. I didn't feel like there was anything to worry about and my uncle seemed none the wiser to what was going on with us. We always try to keep things under control when we're out and about so we don't risk losing the relationship we have. But I don't know, I think it gave me false confidence or something because as soon as it got late enough I kept sneaking back in again. He never tried to stop me either. It just kept happening that way until my uncle finally left us.

The thing is, I overheard them talking that morning, and my uncle was telling him how he'd heard me go into his room during the night, and that not long after he'd heard lots of heavy breathing and rocking between the walls. He said he hadn't thought much of it that first night, but then it kept happening, and he felt he couldn't leave without at least saying something.

I couldn't believe I'd let things get so out of hand, but I heard him jump in and tell my uncle I'd been having all these night terrors lately, and that I'd just gone to him to help me calm down. I don't know how he came up with it so quickly but it sounded believable to me. I'm not really sure what my uncle left thinking, but it's been a few weeks now and I can't stop myself from worrying. I'll never forgive myself if I've caused any trouble.