This is from a few months ago, I wrote it on a throwaway account but feel like I should post here, hope you enjoy reading! ——

I met him at a photo shoot, we’re both in the modeling industry. He’s well known male model from New Zealand, and I am trying to break into the industry and have had some success.

The shoot was in Miami, it’s where I live and it was down near the beach. It was like this weird skater boy and beach bunny thing, so he was shirtless, just wearing torn up jeans and a backwards hat. I was in a pretty tiny two piece bikini. We were pair together as like a contrast thing. He is super tall, blonde, and pretty. Whereas I’m a short mixed girl (5’3), with dark hair and a curvy gymnastics body.

Well we hit it off pretty much immediately.. he is based in new york so I brought him back to my place. We really connected, I think he’s funny and charming and obviously super hot..

He also fucks better then anyone I’ve ever been with.. He's not massive or anything but my God does he know how to use it. I seriously can't get enough of it.

We started texting and seeing each other regularly for a few months, and I honestly got into that phase where I was imagining what our kids would look like. He would come down to Miami just to visit, (and of course fuck the life out of me). We would talk for hours on the phone and on FaceTime. He told me I was the most beautiful girl he’s ever known.. I wanted to visit him in New York, but I don’t make nearly as much as he does so I can’t just travel like that.

So after a few months, I save up some money and I go up to visit him. It wasn’t a surprise really, so I don’t know how it happened. But when I got to his place, there was another girl hanging out at his apartment. I thought she might just be a friend, but we started talking, and he and her hook up whenever he is in New York.. Neither of us knew, and we were both furious. When he got back, we yelled at him for awhile. And she left, and broke it off with him. I wanted to leave too.. but I didn’t have anywhere else to go.

I fell asleep crying on his couch that night.. and the next morning.. But the next morning I snuck into his bed and I woke him up with my lips around his cock. I don’t know what was going through my head.. and I’m kinda ashamed to admit how weak I am. But I literally fucked him and was a perfect little slut for him that whole day. Nothing was off limits.. I even gave him a rim job and ate his ass.. my first time ever doing something like that (hopefully the last 😖) I guess I was desperate to prove myself to him. That I was the girl worth being with.

The next day I expected an apology or something, or for him to at least acknowledge the lies he told me about him seeing other girls. But he did the opposite.. he told me I was just a great fuck. And he would still see other girls. I left furious, at him and at myself.

Back in Miami, heartbroken and frustrated. I blocked him on everything. But a few weeks later he showed up at my door.. he told me he was sorry. That it was a mistake. I told myself I wouldn’t ever do it again. When I woke up the next morning with his cum leaking out of me, he had already left. He had left me a note saying that he had a flight to catch and he was headed to New Zealand to visit his family. I was so upset. He came over to fuck me during his layover..

A few days later he face timed me while I was at the gym.. he unblocked my number when he came over. When I answered, he was laying on a his bed with his cock out.. he wanted me to get him off. Normally when we did this, it was night time for both of us, but due to the time difference it was mid morning for me. I was at the gym, even so.. I went into a restroom stall and stripped for him.. I was his little cam whore in there for like 30 minutes, doing whatever he asked to get him off.

That was a few weeks ago.. this past weekend, I paid for a flight to New York. And spent the weekend fucking him, and his friend.. I didn’t plan on fucking his friend, but he convinced me it would be hot. We even recorded it, Monday night I asked him to send it to me, and the video he sent was of him his friend and a girl that was not me.. he had sent the wrong video, I was so furious again.. I was telling myself never again.. but who am I kidding really.. I'm willing to do anything for this man. Anything that pleases him because he's the one who has me begging for mercy everytime we have sex. And I hope that he eventually loves me as much as I stupidly love him..