Once i finally was able to go through with sucking my first dick and told my friend about it he immediately asked if i would ever be ok with helping him out, I being the good friend i am gladly offered but it didn’t seem like he would ever actually go through with it he probably just wanted to have something to hold over my head i guess

I had pretty much given up hope until one day months later i started joking around and pretended to go down on him, i wasn’t expecting him to push my head down but when he did i took the chance and buried my face in his crotch

im sure he thought i was going to get myself up but i kind of just stayed there grabbing and rubbing my face on his junk, he didn’t respond negatively so i kept going until i felt it started getting hard I was worried he was having doubts but when he slid his shorts off and was just sitting in only his boxers i knew what he wanted me to do

unfortunately im not the best and i started overthinking it almost having a mini panic attack it almost felt like it was a dream like there was no way this was happening he knows me well enough he could probably tell i was feeling weird so in his mind the best way to put me at ease was to put his hands on my head, which definitely worked but the fact that it did, kinda made me feel a bit weird, submissive i guess and it felt pretty cool not going to lie

i felt comfortable enough to pull it out and start doing my best, he definitely has a lot more experience than me so he knows what he likes, and given that his hands were already on me i started feeling firm but gentle pressure on my head and it kind if made me feel like i was being used which is honestly a good thing weirdly enough for me

it was exactly what i imagined i threw up a bit in my mouth and swallowed it before he noticed but it made me gag which made him lose control a bit i felt like i was going to suffocate but i didn’t know how to tell him to stop, i honestly didn’t want him to i wanted him to feel like i was his and to forget about me for a second and just let this be about him

i would have told him all that if i didn’t have a dick in my mouth but he definitely didn’t need me to tell him, he was having a good time, i hope so at least, i was struggling to keep up i had just about gotten under control and stopped gagging when i realized he was grabbing me more firmly and his dick started to tense up even more i realized he was not about to warn me and i somehow liked that as well, he grabbed my neck and head and grunted pretty hard i could tell i was definitely being a good friend, he tried to shoot it down my throat but i gagged and twitched my head back up and he instantly pushed me back down and made me swallow it, it was probably the best moment of my life

Then he just kind of started chuckling he looked at me in a way nobody has ever looked at me before and kind of anticlimactically just told me how stupid i looked

now we kind of just act like it never happened, curiosity satisfied i suppose. he sometimes looks at me the same way he did that day and it gives me butterflies in my stomach as dumb as that sounds if im being honest. i know sucking dick isn’t exactly everyones life goal it maybe says alot about my character/personality but it is what it is i just hope hes down to try again

sry for the long read i suck at writing no that was not a pun