This is going to sound weird but lately exams are stressing me out for some reason when I’m stressed I often start to fantasize about random guys who are just minding their own business, studying in the library touching me and “relieving my stress”. I know it’s totally creepy but once I start the fantasizes escalate to the point where I’m so wet that it’s distracting and I can’t focus on anything else let alone study.

That’s bad enough but when I give up and go home to try to get a release my roommate is always home and I think my upstairs neighbours work from home too since I can wear them walking around during the day and I’m…sensitive so I struggle to be quiet anyways. i’ve been trying to resist but when I’m desperate to touch myself I have to put on a loud tv show and my white noise machine and I swear it’s still not loud enough. and bc i’m so sensitive and it feels too good I lose control a bit and it’s hard to focus on muffling the sounds or keeping them quiet. I get so embarrassed after thinking about how loud i must’ve been.

I normally try to be careful about my noises and pick times when I know for sure my roommate isn’t around but with exams coming up I keep getting into this cycle of needing to touch myself more and more. Now i’m so nervous every time I leave my room or my apartment bc I don’t know if they heard me or not. I’m a very reserved person so it just feels so slutty but it feels so good to confess